??? Better Attitude & Pizza

I am feeling grateful. Happy and blessed. Other than some knee pain, I am healthy. No more sinus goo. I can smell and taste food.

Food is good. I need food. I need to remember to be nicer to myself and relax.

I got a call last Friday morning. Shelli had been sick all night and wasn't going to make it to the Stampin' Up! St. Louis regional. I did some fast work and got a flight to St. Louis. It was such a fun regional--there was a Comic-con event down the hall. How often do you see aliens, Lego heads, wizards, princesses, Dr. Who look-alikes, and stampers in the same area? We fit right in! Really, the day was lovely. Being with stampers is always fun and re-energizing.

I did okay with food. Okay, in this case, is good.

I made a yummy pinterest treat today. Zucchini pizza bites. They were soooo tasty!

Here's the link:
http://www.skinnytaste.com/2010/07/zucchini-pizza-bites.html

Here's what they look like:


I hope you're having a good day and can also find something to be grateful for!

270.2: Ignorance Is Dangerous

No news is bad news when it comes to the Bonnie-on-a-weight-loss-journey blog. I tried, I really tried. For three days in March, I tried.

I have one excuse after another (traveling, illness, stress) but it boils down to this: I quit caring.

Caring takes time and energy. I feel like I am in short supply of both right now.

Last Thursday I told my niece Tamsin that I was going to work very hard for three weeks and see where I am. When I hugged her goodbye on Saturday, she wished me luck for the next three weeks and I had no idea what she was referring to. If I can't stay focused on this goal for three days, how am I going to for three weeks?

Today is day one back with Medifast. I have found in the past that I generally don't do as well when I repeat a program as I do the first time around. I think I learn how to cheat and still lose the first time around, so I start again by cheating. Then the cycle of "if I can't do it 100%, why do it at all?" comes into play.

Wow! I sound like a mess, huh? Sorry for the blog sob, I just need to vent.

I want to stop for a taco on the way home. A taco isn't bad. The problem is it will open the door to other things and I don't want to open that door.

Here's my survival plan for tonight:
1) Drink water on the way home
2) Eat 1 cup chopped chicken salad (I had 1 cup for lunch) to complete my Lean and Green.
3) Have my Medifast cookie at 8:30
4) Go to bed early.

Pray for me. And if you have any sage advice, please share!

261.0: Profound Insight?

Maybe I watch TV while I eat instead of eating while I watch TV.

Now that I can't taste anything, I find little enjoyment or relaxation in watching television.

I seriously had no idea how bored I am.

261.2: Baby Steps and a Loss

The Fitbit is great. I love seeing everyday what I'm taking in and burning. Slowly but surely I'm moving. Moving my body and attitude in a positive direction.

In other news, this is day three of a head cold that has now moved to my chest. I was sick on Thursday, but it didn't really hit 'til that night. I had Friday off, so I cancelled my tax appointment and nursed myself. Still miserable yesterday, I went to the pharmacist and got some heavy duty decongestent medicine. Now my chest is tight and I'm coughing, but the head congestion feels better.

That's nice Bonnie. What's your point? My point is I have no sense of smell. I'm fairly sure it's smell, not taste, but they're so tied together I could be wrong. Sometime yesterday it dwindled, then completely left. I don't feel like eating much, but it's very frustrating to not even be able to taste what I do eat. Yesterday I was craving chocolate. I had some M&M's and every once in a while I tried one. Nothing. Since it's moved to my chest, I thought for sure I'd be able to taste now. Nope.

I'm pondering what life would be like if I never regained it. How does someone who craves a certain food deal with not being able to taste? How many times do I eat past the point of really tasting the food?

I am gonna remember this. When I can taste again, I vow to cherish my bites. Until I take it all for granted again.   

262.4: Oddly Okay

The day after my last post I weighed 264, so I lost weight this week. I'm glad to say that! The fitbit is very motivating. I enjoy logging my food on the site. It's easy and visible. With intentional effort, I can get 5000 steps without exercise. My goal for the coming week is to get 7000 each day.

Wish me luck?

A lesson re-learned: Don't buy honey roasted peanuts, sunflower seeds, pumpkin seeds and almonds and expect to not eat them. Even if you put them in the freezer.

260.04: Could be Worse!

I have a day and a half of diligent tracking and clean eating under my belt. I celebrate that. Yay!

Work has begun this program where my monthly premiums will be more or less expensive based on my health and exercise. I now own a Fitbit--a fancy pedomenter that will sync with a dongle (yup, that's what it's called) on my computer and track my exercise.



It's so stinkin' cold I don't wanna exercise. Wait, I don't wanna exercise ever, so that can't be my excuse. Hmm. We'll see.

Are you staying active? What's your secret? Tell me, please, please, please!

???: Ignorance is bliss

No posts=head in the sand oblivion. I kinda quit battling the nibble beast sometime the middle of December. I didn't intend to also quit posting. That snuck up on me. Did any one else have that nasty stomach flu? I had three different rounds of it.

Still, December was holiday heaven. I hit high entertainment with the Mormon Tabernacle Choir's Christmas concert, Donny and Marie's Christmas concert, and lots of family time. I was able to take some time off, so all my projects got finished! I hope you had a nice holiday also!

I promise to post my weight this week. I'm at a crossroads (again) with Medifast. I can put together one or two good days, but I crumble on the third which is when I'm supposed to achieve nirvana and fat burning. I dunno... The thing is, if not Medifast, what? I don't have any other specific plan and we all know how successful it is to just 'let things happen'. The reasons Medifast worked for me haven't changed, so I think it's as good a choice as any for now.

I'm certain accountability and honesty are key. Luckily work (Stampin' Up!) has implemented a health insurance related fitness program, so I will be in good company (pun alert!).

I'm glad you checked in and hope you are healthy and happy! I'd love to get a comment from you--they really help. Just sayin'...