Tuesday, April 5, 2011

The Healing Phase

I met with Kaleo last Friday. I had nothing to say to her. I'm doing the same thing I've done for the past 6 months, so I'm getting the same results I've gotten for the past 6 months. I've lost and found the same 4 pounds. How can this be progress? Moment of illumination: I'm now in the cognition phase of recovery. I used to eat myself into numbness with no knowledge of what I was doing. Now I know that I'm doing it, but I do it anyway. So I repeat my question, "How can this be progress?" According to Kaleo, just the awareness of the behavior is monumental and I shall eventually be able to intervene between a strong emotion and the resulting chocolate coma. Yay! I told her in a way I feel even more mentally unhealthy because I know that I'm engaging in destructive behavior. Ready for the quote of the day? "The healing phase is not always a good feeling place." Wow! Food for thought (pun intended)