Kaleo (my addiction therapist) has told me a couple of times that she believes once I really figure things out, my weight will just drop off me. Not sure how I feel about that. Isn't that like saying "You'll feel better when it quits hurting?" That was one of my dad's favorite things to say when faced with a scraped knee. Duh! I want to know what to do 'til it quits hurting or 'til I figure things out.
How long will this take? I know the answer to that--as long as it has to. Again, not happy with that platitude.
Sigh. Eye roll. Deep sigh.
Every night I go home wanting a different outcome. I want to go to bed feeling I've done something other than work, come home and eat in front of the TV, then go to bed. On the flip side, I feel like I need some down time to just chillax. What is the right balance between productive relaxation (tidying up, light cooking, stamping, reading my therapy books, hanging out with Parker and Landon) and full blown rear-on-the-recliner, brain-numbing-television-watching time?
Is it a math equation? If my day's stress=x; my ideal evening=y? Hmm.
Am I the only one who goes in spurts and gurgles with things? Right now, my kitchen sink is filled with dirty dishes, my kitchen table is filled with odds and ends I've just plopped down, and my craft room table is filled with Leadership projects not yet finished or filed away. After work, I walk right by these things, grab a bite from the fridge and plop in the recliner not to move 'til bedtime. Then, some random night, I'll attack the mess and be free from the clutter once again. I have to be in the mood, I guess. How can I create this mood if I'm not feelin' it and no one's home to make it a necessity?
Lots of questions today!
Thursday, February 24, 2011
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
The Results!
Hi all,
I had such an eventful birthday weekend that all thoughts of blogging flew completely out of my brain! Okay, that's not entirely true. I thought about it all day Sunday and Monday but just couldn't get myself to sit in front of the computer and spill my guts. I lost 2 pounds. I had lost 8, but on my official weigh in day, I only lost 2. Sometimes the scale is just not my friend. I suppose it's all relative if it's moving the right direction, right?
I want to congratulate Holly, Julie, Robin, Jenny, Deb, Cathi, Amanda, Alan and Ann Marie for their weight loss. A big shout out to Paula who lost 10 pounds, Cori who lost 9.5, and Jenni who lost 17 (since Jan 17). Woohoo! So far we've lost 90.5 pounds. Gee, that feels good! I'm waiting to hear from some of you, so that number should go up. If you didn't report, please do--as soon as you can!
I got a letter from the American Cancer Society last Friday. Coincidence? I think not! I plan to write out a check the end of the week (pay day is Friday).
I had such an eventful birthday weekend that all thoughts of blogging flew completely out of my brain! Okay, that's not entirely true. I thought about it all day Sunday and Monday but just couldn't get myself to sit in front of the computer and spill my guts. I lost 2 pounds. I had lost 8, but on my official weigh in day, I only lost 2. Sometimes the scale is just not my friend. I suppose it's all relative if it's moving the right direction, right?
I want to congratulate Holly, Julie, Robin, Jenny, Deb, Cathi, Amanda, Alan and Ann Marie for their weight loss. A big shout out to Paula who lost 10 pounds, Cori who lost 9.5, and Jenni who lost 17 (since Jan 17). Woohoo! So far we've lost 90.5 pounds. Gee, that feels good! I'm waiting to hear from some of you, so that number should go up. If you didn't report, please do--as soon as you can!
I got a letter from the American Cancer Society last Friday. Coincidence? I think not! I plan to write out a check the end of the week (pay day is Friday).
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
12 More Days to Lose 5 Pounds!
Scale story: 278.5
Hey hey! Watching the Superbowl and reporting in... I fell a bit like the Steelers must as they began the second half--wait, they just scored! Anyway, I'm behind. It's a PMS week, so I feel like the scale's not the most reliable story right now. I KNOW I will have lost 5 pounds by Feb 17th. What's your status? Email me, FB me, leave a comment on my blog!
This is what I have right now:
Bonnie -.5
Mary
Jill
Cathi
Shiloh
Pam
Paula
Amanda
Shannon
Carrie
Sam
Alan
Loene
Anita
Holly
Julie
Dee
Debi -1
Linda
Robin -1
Erin
Patty
Jenny
Stella
Corinna -1
Hanna
Deb
Michelle
Ann Marie
Cori
Sharon
(I posted this on Sunday, but it went on a trip somewhere in cyberspace!)
Hey hey! Watching the Superbowl and reporting in... I fell a bit like the Steelers must as they began the second half--wait, they just scored! Anyway, I'm behind. It's a PMS week, so I feel like the scale's not the most reliable story right now. I KNOW I will have lost 5 pounds by Feb 17th. What's your status? Email me, FB me, leave a comment on my blog!
This is what I have right now:
Bonnie -.5
Mary
Jill
Cathi
Shiloh
Pam
Paula
Amanda
Shannon
Carrie
Sam
Alan
Loene
Anita
Holly
Julie
Dee
Debi -1
Linda
Robin -1
Erin
Patty
Jenny
Stella
Corinna -1
Hanna
Deb
Michelle
Ann Marie
Cori
Sharon
(I posted this on Sunday, but it went on a trip somewhere in cyberspace!)
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
The Scale Story: Saturday
277.5.
I am relieved and hopeful that tomorrow I will show a strong 1-2 pound loss. Friday I baked and ate brownies with Landon, so I have to start my no sugar again. Oh well!
I am relieved and hopeful that tomorrow I will show a strong 1-2 pound loss. Friday I baked and ate brownies with Landon, so I have to start my no sugar again. Oh well!
The Scale Story: Friday
279.5.
I want to throw a tantrum and pound my fists on the floor. A bit dramatic, don't you think? I don't because I couldn't get back up.
I want to throw a tantrum and pound my fists on the floor. A bit dramatic, don't you think? I don't because I couldn't get back up.
The Scale Story: Thursday
279. Yes, that's really what the scale showed this morning. See why I get so bugged at a low number on Monday? Arghh!
I'm craving sugar--chocolate in particular. I rarely crave sugary things-salty is more my style. It could be mental, I'm thinking. Ha! Aren't I the funny one?
I'm craving sugar--chocolate in particular. I rarely crave sugary things-salty is more my style. It could be mental, I'm thinking. Ha! Aren't I the funny one?
The Scale Story: Wednesday
275.5
May the downward trend continue!
I ate some chocolate today. Oops. I will begin again right now. No sugar 'til Feb 17th. I can do that, can't I?
May the downward trend continue!
I ate some chocolate today. Oops. I will begin again right now. No sugar 'til Feb 17th. I can do that, can't I?
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
The Scale Story: Tuesday
Today my scale says 276.5. I weighed twice. Could be accurate. Go figure.
The list has grown! Here's the current group:
Bonnie -1
Jill
Cathi
Shiloh
Pam
Paula
Amanda
Shannon
Carrie
Sam
Alan
Loene
Anita
Holly
Julie
Dee
Debi
Linda
Robin -1
Erin
Patty
Jenny
Stella
Corinna
Hanna
Deb
Michelle
My sister-in-law says my brother Alan won't be motivated unless punished, so I told him he'd have to pay me 10 bucks for the American Cancer Society if he doesn't lose his weight. I know he will because I'm his favorite (and only) little sister and it's the only present I want from him!
My friend (and boss) Pam Morgan has given up sugar. I decided to join her 'til my birthday. Just that should give me a couple of pounds, eh? Cathi, you in? I'm guessing yes. Everyone else, how's it going? Robin lost a pound last week (hence the -1 by her name). Keep me posted via Facebook, email or blog!
The list has grown! Here's the current group:
Bonnie -1
Jill
Cathi
Shiloh
Pam
Paula
Amanda
Shannon
Carrie
Sam
Alan
Loene
Anita
Holly
Julie
Dee
Debi
Linda
Robin -1
Erin
Patty
Jenny
Stella
Corinna
Hanna
Deb
Michelle
My sister-in-law says my brother Alan won't be motivated unless punished, so I told him he'd have to pay me 10 bucks for the American Cancer Society if he doesn't lose his weight. I know he will because I'm his favorite (and only) little sister and it's the only present I want from him!
My friend (and boss) Pam Morgan has given up sugar. I decided to join her 'til my birthday. Just that should give me a couple of pounds, eh? Cathi, you in? I'm guessing yes. Everyone else, how's it going? Robin lost a pound last week (hence the -1 by her name). Keep me posted via Facebook, email or blog!
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