No news is bad news when it comes to the Bonnie-on-a-weight-loss-journey blog. I tried, I really tried. For three days in March, I tried.
I have one excuse after another (traveling, illness, stress) but it boils down to this: I quit caring.
Caring takes time and energy. I feel like I am in short supply of both right now.
Last Thursday I told my niece Tamsin that I was going to work very hard for three weeks and see where I am. When I hugged her goodbye on Saturday, she wished me luck for the next three weeks and I had no idea what she was referring to. If I can't stay focused on this goal for three days, how am I going to for three weeks?
Today is day one back with Medifast. I have found in the past that I generally don't do as well when I repeat a program as I do the first time around. I think I learn how to cheat and still lose the first time around, so I start again by cheating. Then the cycle of "if I can't do it 100%, why do it at all?" comes into play.
Wow! I sound like a mess, huh? Sorry for the blog sob, I just need to vent.
I want to stop for a taco on the way home. A taco isn't bad. The problem is it will open the door to other things and I don't want to open that door.
Here's my survival plan for tonight:
1) Drink water on the way home
2) Eat 1 cup chopped chicken salad (I had 1 cup for lunch) to complete my Lean and Green.
3) Have my Medifast cookie at 8:30
4) Go to bed early.
Pray for me. And if you have any sage advice, please share!