Tuesday, September 3, 2013

277: I'm Gonna Have to Re-think This...

Of course, I partied all weekend. I went to three movies, watched a ton of television, sat around and ate. Movie popcorn with extra butter, chocolate covered cinnamon bears, pizza, nachos...and I didn't track anything.

That's my quick update. I had breakfast today at 8:00 and haven't decided whether I'm Medifasting or FastDieting.

In my experience, I am successful on a specific diet program the first time I do it. When I return to it, I'm not as successful. I think that's because I've figured out how to 'bend' the rules and still lose. With that attitude and approach, I don't know if I can Medifast...but I have a bunch of Medifast food. Oh, and I like how I feel on it. Oh, and it's easy to follow.

I just don't know which direction to turn. I want to be healthy so my body doesn't ache all the time. I want to be healthy because I'm worth it.

I'm stressed today. Sorry to be a downer. I just don't believe in myself right now as far as making good food choices. That makes me sad. I'm a good person and I deserve to be a better friend to myself.

Harrumph. Sigh.


  1. Bonnie, I'm so sorry you're feeling stressed today. Don't lose hope. You have proven time and again that you can do and endure and overcome hard things, whether they're related to dieting or not. And we've all done the weekend partying thing . . . it's probably totally natural after your first little bit on a new diet plan. You're just getting used to it, and figuring out what is going to work best for you or not. Figuring that out and deciding how to move ahead now is progress, too. Keep hanging on, Bonnie! You are stronger than you realize! (And gosh, I miss you!)

  2. You can do this! You absolutely deserve to be a better friend to yourself. Perfectionism is the highest form of self-abuse.
    I have definitely been in this spot before. I had to change my focus from constantly being on a diet to eating the foods that were best for me. I focus on eating veggies and fruits and really having a balanced diet. I used to count every calorie, but then I found myself binge eating a lot because I felt so restricted. Now I make choices based on my health and let the rest go. I make bad food choices all the time, but overall my eating lifestyle has changed. Do your best and forget the rest! My other saying to live by is "nothing tastes as good as healthy feels." Love you tons!

  3. Thinking of you my friend. I find when stressed I make the same mistakes.....sometimes I know what I'm doing and do it anyway.....trying to do the right thing is hard but we both know that once we get there, it will be worth the struggles....I love you my friend....keep the chin up, it's wonderful to be alive, even at my size.....

    Hugs, Deb in NH

    1. Sending you heaps of encouragement. Apparently small changes can make a big difference over a period of time without you having to diet. For instance cream cheese, can be replaced with greek yoghurt with a little lime juice in and it is hard to tell the difference, instead of orange juice from a bottle the juice of an orange makes a huge difference. I use sweetner instead of sugar in almost everything. You will like this one I buy digestive buscuits they are diet buscuits as they are only chocolate coated on one side. Don't go without chocolate or you will crave it. Sending you a cyber tim tam all the way from New Zealand. We all love you Bonnie