Wow! The week snuck up on me. I took Tuesday off and did nothing but work out, nap, shop, and meet some friends for dinner. It was a lovely recuperation day. I had a terrible headache that night-I think just plain old fatigue. Silly me!
I've had three great food days in a row. It feels so good to feel in control-at least of what goes in my mouth. I never take that feeling for granted. Seems like one day it's easy and the next three it's hard. I LOVE feeling my loose pants and being able to go up and down stairs without thinking about my knees, but when I see photos from Founder's Circle, I realize how far I have to go-and that is very discouraging.
In 2007 when I last kept track of weight loss efforts, I weighed 271. I remember seeing the 270's for the first time and gasping in shock. For some reason that was more real than the 260's. Well, I still managed to gain 20 pounds in the three years between then and 2010.
I am scared I will give up. Even though things are going well; even though I am making good decisions, it's easier to just drift into weight gain than to battle this demon every time I turn around.
I think I'm just tired. Press on!
I know how you feel about being easier to gain it, and how hard it is to loose but YOU CAN DO IT.....it just will take a while. I've lost 10 lbs since May but I also work third shift so it's going to take me a lot longer than someone else.....I'm not givig up either. I know we will be successful at this! Keep smiling!
ReplyDeleteI am proud of you for acknowledging your fear. If we don't name those fears and see them for what they are, we can't overcome them. Just the mere fact that you feel it, and are allowing yourself to feel it, gives you the power to choose whether it will come true or not. Love you lady, you are BEAUTIFUL and don't ever think differently! One of the most important lessons I've learned this year, learn to love yourself as you are NOW. Accept yourself NOW and treat yourself with the same love and respect that you would "when you get skinny". It makes all the difference in the world. (Just a side note, I have to make the decision to love and respect myself everyday. I haven't found it to be a one time thing. But the days I do make that decision - are ALWAYS better! I eat better, I'm happier, and life is good!)You are doing so awesome and have much to be happy about! You go girl!!!
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