I had an amazing session last Friday morning. I had been feeling so 'jumping out of my skin' all week that I wasn't sure how I could communicate what I was feeling. As I shared with Kaleo, I stumbled on something. For some reason, I feel that even having what I consider negative emotions like jealousy, boredom, anger, loneliness, etc. is a sign of being broken. When I shared this with Kaleo I realized that I had discovered something about myself that can really help me begin to deal with my emotions. It's not that I don't know how to deal with being lonely, angry, etc., it's that I don't know how to not feel those emotions. Well, it turns out it's OKAY to feel that way! I'm not a drip or loser because I have occasional bad days. I don't have to figure out how to not feel those things, I have to figure out what to do when I feel those things.
Hmm and yay!
I gained two pounds. I feel disappointed, but I'm okay that I feel disappointed. I know I will get over that feeling and return to being able to focus on my feelings, not on my food.