I lost a pound. I mean, I lost a pound! That's kind of how I feel. I am happy. Really.
I did a very bad thing a couple of weeks ago prior to the merry go 'round of travel I've been riding recently. I plotted out my weight loss and where I should be at certain times in order to hit my goal of 50 pounds by Feb 17, 2011. Turns out I'm now behind. So instead of celebrating my hard earned one pound weight loss, I am bemoaning the fact that I'll never make my goal. I was secretly hoping to surpass it. Silly me! When will I learn to take things one day at a time?
I did spend some flying time looking at my relationship with food. It's been interesting to sort out my feelings. I am not delving too deep right now-I didn't feel like breaking into little pieces in an airport and part of me feels like that's what will happen if and when I finally fully confront this. The Shrink Yourself book would say I'm catastrophizing things. Spell check says that's not a word. Should be.
Question of the day: Should I make an appointment to fall apart or just let it happen?
Bonnie, if you can allow me to give you one piece of advice it's this....don't concentrate on the numbers. When I was losing I never thought of the number I wanted to lose. It was overwhelming. So instead when someone asked me my goal was to lose weight. Period. That way you aren't adding the stress to you body about losing or gaining this or that. You are doing GREAT for someone who spends so much time on the road.
ReplyDeleteEverything else....well, only you can make that decision. Do you think to address what's going on with you and will it help or will just letting it fall as it may work better.
Sorry for just jumping in. I've been in your shoes. After losing 172 pounds I'm still in your shoes. But hang in there and keep up the fabulous work.
hugs,
Denise
a pound is a pound, and it's a loss so that is good! I think we all have things we will struggle with and sometimes it holds us back and sometimes not. You have to do what you have to do, if falling apart happens it happens....I'm sending you hugs, wish i could give you a real one.....Know your thought of fondly and that you can do what ever you set your mind to....it just might not go as quick as you would like.... Deb
ReplyDeleteOh, Bonnie...I love you. I'm slowly working through Shrink Yourself. I'm typically a fast reader, but this one's painful. I have to read a little, then sit on it for a day or two before I have the courage to face more. One of my sisters and I sat down and hashed out some of our issues that drive us to food, and when we were done, I felt so crappy all I wanted was cake. :) I heard a great talk about patience on Sunday, and I think it was geared directly for me. I have a hard time with the day-at-a-time concept, too, but slow and steady wins the race, right? Even though sometimes we think slow and steady falls over and dies before we get anywhere!
ReplyDeleteI love that you're doing this. It's inspiring.