Monday, July 5, 2010

50 Pounds in 50 Blogs #1

I'm back. As I wrote in the last paragraph of my March blog (yes, the last time I blogged), I can hold a diet together for two great weeks, then I just get tired of the hassle--and yes, it's a relief to just give up and eat what I want.

I should have come clean. I should have listened to your encouragement. I appreciate your attempts to get me back on the ball-thank you Julie Salva, Max and Sam the SAM. I just couldn't deal.

So, where have I been? Nowhere, everywhere.

In April I ended up with pneumonia. Got a shot, took some antibiotics, drank some cough syrup. By the middle of May, I felt recovered and joined my SU friends for the Australia/New Zealand Convention in Syndey. We left on Monday, arrived on Wednesday, and by Thursday my chest was tight and it hurt to breathe. I had no voice and had to whisper my presentations. Luckily the AU/NZ demos were totally understanding. Back home I needed another round of antibiotics combined with a solid week of no work. It's the beginning of July and I finally feel more energy. Don't want to do that again!

Also, it's my summer of 49. That's what my friend Kim called it two years ago when she was 49 and her hormones turned her into a person she didn't know. I feel like an alien has invaded my body, my heart, and my spirit. I want to laugh about it, but I can't. It's not just the hot flashes--it's my complete inability to feel like myself. How long will this last? Hopefully I can get some great meds that stabilize me a bit. I hate resorting to that, but something's gotta give here.

I finally feel like I've put some tools in place to help me in. First, I joined Weight Watchers online. I know tracking food is the only way for me to pay attention. Second, I'm going to get some help for my food addiction. Yup, I said it. Eating numbs me; removes me from my life. Sad, because I think I have a pretty good life--so what am I running from? Third, I've told my friends and family about my goal to lose 50 pounds by the time I'm 50-February 17, 2011, and finally, I'm going to commit to writing 50 blogs to document those 50 pounds. This is the first of those blogs. I plan to blog on Sundays and Thursdays. Should be fun!


  1. Bonnie it was so good to see you here in Australia again. Even if you were the Stamp Whisperer! Maybe you'll have people after you for a new TV Series or a movie even with a name like that!

    I hear you on the weight issue. Its so hard to lose it once its found you and those with out our 'set' just dont get it. I wish you every success in this journey and I plan to take it with you (but from the other side of the globe) so 50 pounds for you works out to be 23 kilo's for me so today is day one :) It sounds like a big task but we can do it .... together :)

    Looking forward to seeing more of your posts and 'less' of you ;) (and less of me too!)

  2. Good luck Bonnie, I know it is a tough road. I've been struggling with this for over 20 years now with my thyroid condition. I haven't tried Weight Watchers so I'm anxious to see if it helps you. I'm praying for your success :)

  3. Good for you Bonnie!!! I'm so proud of you! Facing the challenge and telling others about it is not easy, but I know you can accomplish anything you set your mind to! just take things a day at a time and know that you have friends and family who love and support you!!!


  4. YOU CAN DO IT BONNIE!!! I would love to do whatever I can to help, so just let me know (sorry, that means not bringing chocolate or M&Ms over!!) Love you my friend!!

  5. Go Bonnie Go!! I KNOW you can do it!!

  6. YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH!!! I'm so happy that Bonnie is back!! I've missed you girl. Don't feel sad, life happens. Feel happy because you are on the move! If there is ANYTHING I can do to help, I'm there! Hormons suck, I'm just sayin! They can mess with so much! I don't know if you read my blog still, but I've joined an Addiction Recovery Program through the church, it's pretty great! And they have a meeting specifically about food in West Jordan. Let me know if you want the details. Good job lady, I'm so happy for you!! And for me - because I get to read Bonnie thoughts, and that makes me happy!!

  7. Yeah - Bonnie is back! You go girl, you can do it!

  8. Hi Bonnie, just found your blog, I just wanted to say that your whispered presentations were the highlight of my first convention!
    You are doing a fantastic job on your weightloss/food addiction journey! I am amazed by your honesty, I don't think I would be able to be that honest with myself let alone on a blog for anyone to see!
    I'm cheering you on and I really want to see you succeed!